Just a few reflections as I sit here on this Father’s Day. First of all, how very grateful I am for my own father. My sweet Daddy, who has always been my hero, my protector, my champion, my support and especially now, my example of faith, obedience, and sacrifice. Because of him and how much I know that he loves me, and my love for him, I can only imagine the love that my Father in Heaven has for me. I love my Daddy. Spending time with them when I am through here is a great anticipation for me. He and my Mother have continued to support and sustain me through my whole mission. I hope in some small way, I am saying thank you to them by trying to remember all of the goodness they have taught me and to help them know that they are part of this experience and who I am trying to become.
We had the opportunity tonight, after Sacrament Meeting, Sunday School, Relief Society, Zone Leader Council, District Meeting and so forth to go to a fireside by Susan Easton Black Durrant. She is an expert author, professor at BYU, and many other titles that I don’t know, on the Nauvoo era, the Prophet Joseph Smith and this time period. She and her husband have actually been called to serve a mission here in the Nauvoo Temple starting in August. The mission president had actually asked her to speak on the Quorums of the Seventy here in old Nauvoo. I have given many tours in the Seventies Hall. It was built by the Seventies here along with all of the other building they were doing. Joseph Young, Brigham’s older brother, was actually the President of all the Seventies. They wanted to build the Seventies Hall as a tribute of honor to God. Seventies are explained in Luke 10:1. They were to be sent out two by two to all the world during the time of Christ. So it was with these men here. She told us some very interesting information about that first quorum. Each man that was selected to be a Seventy, had been part of Zion’s Camp. During the march, these men suffered greatly, deprivations of all kinds, lack of food, illness, and oddly enough did not fulfill what they thought was their original purpose in going. It was actually a “refiner’s fire” experience. Because of this event, the men who were continually obedient, who sacrificed their all, and did not murmur, were the ones who remained faithful to the Gospel. They were the ones who made up this first quorum. The average age of this quorum was 25! Unbelievable, these were the future leaders of the church. So much sacrifice by them and their families. She said something that I hope is true, that part of their blessings for their sacrifice can be found in the posterity that is on the earth today. 14 million strong. What a legacy which I hope they can see, I am sure of it. There are so many times that we as missionaries are helped here in sharing the Gospel. You can almost “feel” the help. I have been able to do things that I thought a few years ago, would have been impossible for me to do. There is a very definite “spirit” here in this sacred place.
Sister Black’s emphasis tonight was Obedience and Sacrifice. The Lord will have a tried people. It talks about it all through the scriptures. So the question to myself; what will I take home form this opportunity that is priceless. Will it change my life and who I am? I certainly hope so in many ways, but as I think about it, the Gospel already has. I look back over my life and I have certainly been through some “Zion Camp,” experiences myself. I hope that at the last day I will be able to face my Father in Heaven and tell Him that I was obedient, and I did sacrifice to the best of my ability. Of course, the Atonement, if used, will make up the difference, but my heart is in the right place.
The greatest blessings however, I see in the life and faith of my children. We have had some extremely rough years. We have been through trials I hope to never face again. We have suffered both body and spirit and are still trying to the best of our ability. We will live with consequence of choices made for a very long time. Although situations have been unbearable at times, long in length and in patience and understanding, my children are strong and faithful and I can see the Gospel of Jesus Christ at work in their lives and in their hearts.
Janae is pregnant…..We will be having another little girl in November. We had quite a scare this last month. Because she is 35, she is considered “high risk.” Some of her blood work came back too high. The result of these tests could be, Spina Bifida, placenta dying, or Janae developing pre-eclampsia, all very terrifying. We cried, we prayed, we struggled and ultimately turned it over to the Lord. My Daddy gave her a blessing that he describes as an experience he will never forget, and then they came on out to Nauvoo. They could feel the spirit of these people, their strength and faith. They loved to be in the Nauvoo Temple, it is like no other I have seen and the feeling inside is pretty sweet. So upon returning home, Janae had another ultrasound and our prayers, once again have been heard. The baby looks perfect in every way. Miracle. Promoter of faith, answer to prayer. We will probably continue to be tried, to have opportunities to exercise our agency, but oh how I pray, that just like the Zion Camp members, we remain obedient, we are able to sacrifice for the Lord and His cause, we will be numbered among the faithful and honest of heart.
A quote from our Relief Society lesson today goes like this, “All difficulties which might and would cross our way must be surmounted. Though the soul be tried, the heart faint, and the hands hang down, we MUST NOT RETRACE OUR STEPS; THERE MUST BE DECISION OF CHARACTER.”
So when I go home, will I be a different person? Hopefully a better example to my children and my family, hopefully with God’s help, the daughter of God that He wants me to be. I am blessed.